I Give You Much Love

My my my…

tellerachael — Tue, 11 Oct 2011 04:35:18 +0000

It’s been a long long lonnnnnng time since I’ve written on this blog. My life has progressed in such a way that has removed me from some social networking sites, like this one. I have a lot of pent up feelings and emotions but haven’t yet figured out how to express them. But that’s enough whining I suppose, I think it’s time for a good old vacation in the near future.

Summer 2010

tellerachael — Thu, 27 May 2010 00:21:22 +0000

School’s out and a girl is ready to party like no tomorrow!!!! The only thing is…I’m still broke…lol. But hey, the best thing I can do is continue to do what I do best and take it in stride right? That’s what you all need to do as well…take everything in stride and just do you. No one can get on you when you stick to your goals and ambitions and achieve everything you want to achieve. I’ve achieved quite a lot and I am happy…the next step is to just take my success to the next step and move forward.

Keep on trucking…’cause no one else is gonna do it for you…

Much Love…Smooches!

Public Displays of Ignorance

tellerachael — Thu, 25 Feb 2010 09:59:55 +0000

PDI- PUBLIC DISPLAYS OF IGNORANCE

Unfortunately there are so many ignorant people running around here not knowing they’re ignorant…

I’ll Let You In…Just This Once…

tellerachael — Thu, 25 Feb 2010 09:57:55 +0000

People think they understand where I come from when I say certain things and when I do certain things. But to be honest, I don’t think they do. Even the people I let know my darkest secrets. I don’t think they can quite grasp the things that go on in my mind. They say “Girl you crazy” or ” I love you because you know how to make me laugh”. While that’s great and all, I kinda feel like I’m not taken seriously. I love to entertain people, because it makes me feel good. But there are so many times where it seems like I’m making a joke and such but I’m really being serious. I have a personality that can come off as really goofy a majority of the time and I see it as a gift and a curse.

When it comes to my own family, I’m kind of unsure of myself because I always have to be the bubbly girl they are so used to seeing and what they need to understand that I have skeletons in the closet that I’m so afraid of revealing to them because I don’t want them to have any negative thoughts about me. But then again, I do want them to realize that I am not that innocent little girl they grew to know and love. Maybe I’m just having a revelation or this is something that is long overdue…either way, I have finally realized something. All I want in this lifetime is for people to understand me and to fully grasp the person I am on the inside and not the person I portray on the out.

Keep that in mind the next time you judge someone…

Much Love…Smooches!

The Power of Love

tellerachael — Thu, 25 Feb 2010 09:41:12 +0000

Now I know I am not the one to talk when it comes to love because I am all over the place when it comes to this subject. I’ve had my mistakes and I’ve had plenty. I know for a fact that more will come in the future but that’s how we fuel ourselves and continue to live, learning and growing from our misfortunes. Now what I want to address in this quick blog is the power behind what love really is. When we hear the word love we assume that the meaning is having feelings for another person and those feelings blossom into something huge like marriage and having children. Our society has associated love with the “American Dream” and I have to be frank…that’s the most ridiculous thing I have ever heard. Love has become so commercialized and transformed into something that is completely unrealistic. Now here’s what I think. When I hear love, I think of two persons being in a state of mind in which they see nothing but success for each other and see nothing more than being with each other and being happy. Plain and simple. No where in my mind do I think about love as being something that needs to happen because media tells it needs to.

Love is a powerful thing and should never be taken for granted. I see too many people out here that jump into relationships because their friends are in relationships. They are so keen on being with someone that they don’t clearly think it through and wind up with a person that is completely incompatible with their own personality and taste. That’s why there are so many breakups nowadays. Like I said, love is sacred and should be rushed because of surrounding influences. I witnessed and am still witnessing so many breakups and heartaches and it pains me because I see so much potential in all of these people and they just throw away their love like it’s a piece of trash. When I think about it, it doesn’t even come off as love to me, it just seems to be strong like. When you truly love someone you are not willing to just let your relationship go down the drain. If you really love someone, you are willing to put things aside and willing to do the most incredulous things to make it work. I can’t say that I’ve been in love before because if I were in love, I wouldn’t have let that relationship go and now looking back at those relationships, I realized it wasn’t love. I don’t feel anything for my old boyfriends now, other than respect. I don’t go weak at the knees when I think of them or see them, so how could that have been love? You may think you’re in love when you’re in that relationship now but in the long run, you may not be because you have no problem letting it go. If you’re truly in love and you so happen to break up because of certain circumstances and the BOTH of you feel like you’ve been torn on the inside…it’s love. If you can’t stand breathing or thinking because you aren’t with that person after only one day…then you’re in love. I’m a believer in letting time heal the wounds and after a certain amount of time has passed and you feel the same about the person as you did on that first day you fell in love….then what the hell are you waiting for? An invitation? Get in there and make it work baby…because love like that does not come around often.

Don’t let negative influences hold you back from finding true happiness because at the end of the day, you’ll only have yourself to blame. Keep smiling…even if it hurts.

Much Love…Smooches!

Checking In

tellerachael — Thu, 14 Jan 2010 05:16:14 +0000

Hi loves, I know I have been slacking with the blogging but I promise I will get back into the groove now that I have more free time. I got to make my own schedule so I only have class on Monday and Wednesdays so that gives me the rest of the days to do what I love to do, and that is entertain you. School is going all right so far, started this Monday, and I am taking African American History, English Composition 101 and Psychology…all pretty good and all on the educational level that I need to be on. Last semester I got screwed over with my schedule because those idiots at the school really thought I was one of those stereotypical black girls that needed to be placed in the lowest level classes. Smh. I could have been taking English Composition 102 now but I guess not. Idiots. But I’m cool with it you know, everything is going all right so far and I couldn’t be more happy about it. The only thing that would make it better for me is if these jerks at this school called me in for an interview…got me sitting here rocking back and forth for a damn phone call. I’m tight…don’t they know that college students need employment right now? Apparently not, because if they did, they would be hiring more and more people…regardless of experience and skills…that’s what training is for you know. Sigh…not much I can do about that but sit here and continue to wait and continue to apply for other jobs. I’m going to stick to working with children since that is all I’ve ever known to do and kids typically love me. Even though some can be completely bratty and annoying…you gotta love them. Well that’s my update right now, I will be sure to get back into the blogging groove and continue to keep you in the loop. In the meantime, be sweet, be safe and stay spectacular.

Much Love…Smooches.

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Tila Tequila…Cut it Out

tellerachael — Thu, 14 Jan 2010 05:03:54 +0000

Tila Tequila…Cut it Out

My thoughts on little Miss Tila Tequila

Ho-Have-A-Seat

tellerachael — Fri, 18 Dec 2009 08:53:15 +0000

B. SCOTT PSA: HO-HAVE-A-SEAT

If you a shit talker….Ho..Have..A..SEAT!

My Russian Roulette

tellerachael — Thu, 10 Dec 2009 23:30:53 +0000

My Russian Roulette

my psychotic alter ego

viewer discretion is advised

I Know…You Don’t Have to Tell Me

tellerachael — Wed, 09 Dec 2009 21:21:56 +0000

It’s been a while since I sat down and wrote a decent blog. I’ve been caught up in so much. First off I’d just like to remind you, if I haven’t already said so, that I hate my school beyond imaginable. Now I know I should be thankful for the fact that I am in school and not at home all day everyday bored out of my wits. So the semester is coming to a close. One more week and I will be free. Then it’s back to work. I guess I should get back into the job scene since I’m broke as hell and my bank account is seeing flies. SMH. I just wish my dear sweet father would hook a sista up. Right now I feel all right, I’m just tired. Drained emotionally and physically. But I have a feeling things will look up soon for me. God always has a plan and right now I’m just waiting for him to relinquish that information to me. I’ll be back to blog some more a lot more frequently guys. Keep your head up and keep smiling. (P.S. Follow me on twitter: tellerachael)

Much Love…Smooches.